Calzona Review 10x06 “Map Of You”
Even before
this episode aired, sneak peek #2 that preceded this episode stressed me out and gave me a tummy upset.
It's stress that I should not even be feeling because of
a TV show. (As if Grey's doesn't usually do this to me.)
I guess reading two interviews on the same day
I saw the sneak peek, one with Jessica Capshaw and one with Tessa Ferrer added
to that stress.
In these
interviews, they somehow confirmed our most dreaded possibility: that Arizona
has moved on and is spending time with another person, i.e. Leah.
Just to
note, we saw NO scenes with Callie and Arizona together.
I'd like to label this as a “transitional” episode, where we see how and where they are, after major shifts in their lives. Here, we join Callie and Arizona through their separate journeys. We see what they're up to.
I see it as an episode that sets the stage for more important events to come.
On with the Calzona dissection of this episode.
McDreamy
took over the voice-over reins in this ep and I love his McVoice speaking about
the human brain-- the center of attention in this episode, (second to the red
mug):
“The human
brain, it may be the most complex map ever created. Billions of
neurons making trillions of connections. At first glance, they seem completely
random, but there’s nothing random about them.
All these
connections happen to have a specific pattern. It is
designed for a function.
These
connections determine everything about us. What we love, what we hate, what we
say, what we do”
In the first
few minutes of the episode, we learn that Callie and Derek have been collaborating
for months on a research, that involves initiating movement by using brain sensors to help immobile patients (in this
case Callie’s patient quadriplegic Mickey).
Sara seems to have been extra beautiful in this episode, especially when she smiles, like in this pic. Just an observation.
Our fears were real. They kissed.
I’ll speed
by this next scene so please read it fast cause well, you know, it’s not a
Calzona scene, but it’s a key scene.
We see
Arizona’s new friend Leah, excitedly telling her peers about some secret that
she can’t share.
She pushes on with her own mysterious secret, even if we see
no one really asking nor listening to what it is.
“I’ve got a secret thing going, too, I can’t
tell you who kissed me though.”
Sadly,
it seemed like she was the only one excited
about her own story.
It was only
on my second re-watch that I caught this line of Leah's because forgive me, my mind automatically goes blank when the core characters are not onscreen.
They *kissed?!!!*. My heart just fell, and it stayed on the floor till the end of the episode.
We then see
Arizona and Leah blankly observing Jo get coffee and they talk about something
that surprises us:
Leah: I
thought you would never leave. You got my
texts? I passed my intern exams
We see Leah as the typical smitten person who grabs every chance to get attention from the object of her affection.
Tessa Ferrer knows it, Calzona fans are annoyed, (and boy! she is going to stir this Calzona thing up).
We learn
that Arizona replied to her text with a “congrats” and it continues:
Leah : I
hoped that I would see u. I had such an amazing
time the other night.
Arizona: It
was fun
Leah : I feel
like im ready to take it further
Arizona :
Uhm, that’s not a good idea
And I see Arizona
smile and was that a nod, Arizona? Was it?? Yes, she did nod. So
they were going to see each other again??? Seemed so.
Callie after dancing in her underwear
Meantime,
Callie has her own story going on too.
Derek questions
Callie why she wasn’t present when they tested new brain sensors on Mickey that
morning and patient Mickey kept asking why Callie wasn’t there.
The last
time we saw Callie was during the 'underwear (Inner Ninja) dance' and
we are curious how she is carrying on after that epic scene
“Moving back into my place
made me want to move back into MY place
Concentrate on what makes me ME. I do regenerative cartilage.
I’m not going forward with
the project. You should totally run with
it”
Her statement strongly implies that as expected, she has been doing soul-searching, but what we don't get is why she chose to discontinue the project.
Derek said it was Callie’s
project and patient and that he doesn’t have time to go on with it and Callie replies,
“Maybe we should just drop it. No harm done,right?”
We were
curious to see Callie this way, why she was bailing on a huge project that she in fact started, but it’s not a time to be judgmental of Callie.
She’s going through a process. It' not our place to question her decisions.
Arizona, Alex and the “Visiting surgeon”
Then comes
that scene where we see a disappointed Leah who couldn’t scrub in on Arizona’s
teratoma surgery because Emma would be observing.
Couldn’t
help but chuckle at the ribbing Arizona got from Alex:
Alex: A
visiting surgeon?
Arizona: Yeah
Alex: And
she’s hot. I’m just saying that it’s good I’ll be there to chaperone.
(when Az reacts) We’re not
joking about this yet?
Obviously,
Alex and Arizona have, over time, developed a close friendship. Alex liberally used this license to tease her in reference to what happened with Lauren (who was also a visiting surgeon) and
that 'visiting surgeon Emma' might be another potential love interest for
Arizona.
Alex's teasing, even if it does make me laugh, seems like it supports how they are laying the groundwork in presenting Arizona's character.
I suspect this is establishing Arizona as having that kind of reputation, supplemental to her having been portrayed as a player in Season 8 ("The Lion Sleeps Tonight")
And guess
what? Arizona found it funny (and true) too as she smiled and let Alex get away with his teasing.
Callie Reinventing herself
Back to Callie, having a conversation with Mer, who tries to decide which project to choose for research
funding, Callie encourages Mer to go on with her mother’s research.
Here, we
discover Callie’s current mindset . She’s grappling with how to take over her own life. She’s made her
first step in owning this need to get herself back, and this is how she
initially rolls.
What she
said though, Mer didn’t seem interested to follow through.
Advice from Alex in the O.R.
It’s
interesting how Arizona is obviously bothered about how Leah has been acting all too
clingy.
Too bothered in fact, that she asks Alex right in the middle of surgery,
Too bothered in fact, that she asks Alex right in the middle of surgery,
Arizona : What’s your strategy when you have a one night stand, not even, you just make out
with them and they get way too attached?
Alex : You
know who’s like that? Leah Murphy
Arizona : Really?
Alex : I
slept w/ her once, maybe two times , she stuck to me like glue. That girl goes
from
zero to I love you in 7 seconds.
zero to I love you in 7 seconds.
Taken aback with this 'attachment Leah' tip from Alex, and seeing her reaction, let’s see what Arizona does
later on.
Derek , Callie, and the Truth
We next see Derek trying to convince Callie to talk to Mickey to allow them to take out the ineffective brain sensors due to the newly discovered tumor in Mickey's brain without taking out the tumor because of the risks involved.
Callie was reluctant, almost apathetic, so Derek was not shy to spew out his thoughts:
Derek :You don’t wanna talk to him cause you don’t want to look him in the eye and tell him you're bailing on this, and you certainly don’t want to tell him why you're bailing
Obviously ticked-off Callie counters, "Why is that?'"
Derek: "You started
this project for Arizona. When you lost interest in her, you
lost interest in this. You're letting your personal problems in the way of
months of research
Callie: You’re
doing the same thing You said you’re done with the study to
spend time with
your kids.
Derek: That’s completely different
Callie : Oh
why is it different, Derek? 'Cause your family’s perfect and mine’s a
disaster? 'Cause you're
leaving the study to support your wife and I'm
doing mine to forget her?
Derek: I
know what you're going through
Callie: You
don’t know anything about it. "
'
My heart on the floor was ripping apart with every sentence of Callie's pain.
"You guys have figured it out, how to make the
pieces fit, and I thought we did too, but I’m figuring this out for myself too
so just bear with me, okay?
I will talk
to Mickey."
Callie moved
me to tears here. She was a mess. It was
the voice of a broken human being, wondering where all the pieces fit.
Theirs was a perfect, stable relationship. She did not have an inkling this could happen to them. And this unexpected blow to their marriage is now manifesting its emotional effect on Callie.
She is in
her healing process as she said to Mer, ("reinventing myself"); and to Derek, ("moving back
to MY place" , "Concentrating on what makes me ME"), but evidently, she was in
pain.
The perfectness
of Derek’s situation all the more gave her the chance to compare, (really not advisable at a time like this) how wretched theirs had become, while
Derek’s family has it all figured out.
Callie realized just in time, she didn't have to take it out on Derek. There was truth to what Derek said. Broken as she was, she resolved to figure it out, and saw the logic of talking to Mickey.
Callie talks to Mickey
When Callie warned Mickey of the hazards of this potentially fatal operation, the explanatory part comes, when Mickey tells Callie how he became a quadriplegic.
He caused a
car accident because he was drunk, and it claimed the lives of two teenage girls.
He had so much guilt, he felt unworthy of being taken care of by people and feels he deserved to have died for causing it.
Every single day for 9 yrs since the accident, he felt guilt and found a good opportunity to redeem himself when Callie asked him
to participate in this project.
Mickey: “When I had
the chance to do something affecting me in a good way, for the first time, I
thought I was worth having around. If I die, give my brain to science and I’ll
still help. Let me help."
Callie
started this project for Arizona and lost interest in it. Back then, that was her
only goal. To help her wife who had just recently lost her leg, to make it easier
for her wife to be mobile.
That goal died with Arizona's departure from her life. Callie had seen no sense to
go on with it . Her only purpose for the project is one person—her
wife.
Talking to
Mickey gave Callie a sense of purpose for this project, and essentially, it
gives her a chance to apply this sense of purpose in her life.
That this
project is not just for a selfish pursuit, but one that can save lives and
ease the conditions of so many.
As with every Greys ep, that talk with Mickey struck a chord within
her. The potential of this project can affect the lives of many people.
Parallel to
her life, she may have spent her life since she got married, all for her wife.
Dedicated to her, but now, with Mickey’s story, she changed her mind about
boxing herself in, including her capabilities.
Callie is an
amazing surgeon and this turn of events involving Mickey, may just be what has
sparked in her to see the the bigger purpose of her profession.
That she will
share her capability for the good of many and not give in to selfishness just
because she was focused on her problems.
How this one
man, who was in a very helpless immobile condition, still wanted to help in any
and all the ways that he could, because of his extreme guilt.
That was
enough for Callie. She was capable and talented enough. The Superstar with a Scalpel had more to give. Just because her life was a mess and she is broken, doesn’t mean
she’ll underperform and not use her talents to the limit.
Talking with
Mickey and seeing Mickey’s way of viewing life gave Callie enough insight to
move on with grace. To aim to still be productive and still achieve greater
heights in her career. Even if shattered inside.
The irony is, instead of Callie convincing Mickey, Mickey Convinced Callie.
So Callie
talks Derek into the surgery.
Derek: “I
still think it’s a bad idea.”
Callie: “Mickey
has got nothing to lose and everything to gain.
So Derek acceded to do it that night.
May I just say, I need to say this now, that with every shot I took of Callie/Sara, I couldn't help but notice that she really looks especially even more stunning in this episode. There's a certain glow about her. She gets more beautiful by the day.
Back to the review.
Arizona gets frank with Leah
Leah let slip that it was Arizona that she kissed. Maybe she was just too thrilled about it, she wanted to brag and shout it to the world, and hey, Arizona overheard her and summoned her and we know the rest.
Oh okay, let me quote them anyway verbatim:
Oh okay, let me quote them anyway verbatim:
Leah :I’m
sorry they pretty much figured it out.
Arizona : Im
sorry but I’m about to be very frank.
The other
night was a bad call on my part. I was lonely and it was
lovely but it was one
night and that’s all it will ever be. So if u have
different expectations pls adjust
them
Leah: Of
course, there’s no need to apologize it’s my fault. I don’t open up
to people
much and when I try to open up a little bit, I can get carried away,it's
happened before
happened before
And you, I just
always admired you as a surgeon and as a person and I thought you
thought about me. I
misunderstood, I went overboard and I'm sorry it wont happen
again.
Arizona: Leah...
Leah: Thanks for
understanding
Leah
extended her hand to seal it with a shake,
Arizona did not and had an ounce of guilt/pity in her eyes for Leah, who went
straight to the bathroom.
That scene
was from the sneak peek and I don’t know why I cried when I first saw it.
Maybe Mainly because
Maybe Mainly because
number 1, Arizona felt sorry for Leah, and didn’t just brush off
her reaction. She cared enough to be concerned about this reaction of Leah’s. You could see it in Arizona's eyes and face, how she felt guilty and did not want to hurt Leah.
Number 2, I won't lie, I
don’t know why I myself felt sorry for Leah. I guess somehow, we all know how
it feels to be rejected. Being a Calzona
shipper runs through my veins, but I was human enough for one second, to understand Leah in
that scene. But that one second is up.
I cannot guarantee
though if I can understand her in future scenes, because still, she is the person who comes in between my Calzona's relationship and that can never be okay with me.
Sure, Leah's vulnerable, willing to jump into any kind of relationship, and she's been called a stalker, is clingy, too attached. She has her own sob story too, for sure, but that's not our concern right now.
All I want to say is, she's better off with another partner, please, not Arizona. Arizona is supposed to be focused on mending ties with Callie. She's supposed to be still loving to Callie, though she moved on.
So Leah, please do not be part of this. It would be unwise. You have a bright future ahead of you, do not come between Calzona. That's a stern but gentle warning. Stop texting Arizona and stop reading her texts. Back off, Leah.
Callie decides
Then we see Callie’s scene with Derek, where Mickey has died and which makes Callie decide.
“This way he
can do the most good for the most people, he would be grateful you did exactly
what you told him to"
Then she
decided not to drop the project, and
this is how she rationalizes:
“You were
right, I was doing it for her. And now I'm doing it for a million people I’ll never even meet."
Arizona's bed scene with her cellphone
Imagine
Derek’s voice-over and imagine Arizona’s “bed scene” with her cellphone.
This one
scene, I was definitely not ready for. I thought the sneak peek was already
enough stress. Then I see Arizona, sleepless, restless in her dark hotel room. Yes, thank goodness she lives in a hotel and not any intern's place. And
reaches for her cellphone.
Then I can't believe what I just saw. She scrolled the
message list, tapped on "Leah", which conspicuously was just below Callie's message (Funny how the show's writers love to play with our feelings)
and texted, “What are you up to?”
I was hoping
against hope she wouldn’t hit the 'send' button. Really hoping. But she did. Her hitting 'send" sent me to my death.
After staring at Jessica's cute thumb hitting that send button,
The questions kept popping up in my unmapped brain:
What
possessed her to even reach for her phone and text Leah?
Why was she
lonely when only a few weeks have passed after she and Callie were in that
therapist’s waiting room trying to fix the marriage?
Was her love
for Callie this shallow? Just a few weeks of being alone and she longs to be in the arms of anyone, in this case a smitten intern?
Sorry, I
love my Arizona, but these actions, even Jessica had said, are “slutty”.
We do feel
so defensive of Callie, but Callie right now is going through her own process.
As we’ve seen her last ep, she is angry at Arizona and kicked her out of the
apartment. She doesn't want to have anything to do with Arizona.
As Jessica
said in her interview, the turning point
for Arizona that let her decide to move
on was when Callie said to the people at the gala that she was dead. That was
the time when she said her character had to decide it was time to go on
with her life.
At this
point, we can conclude, as painful as it may sound, that both Callie and
Arizona have moved on. This episode never even showed them together in one
scene.
Both are (as
we wanted them to), going through their own processes. Their own journeys.
Individually.
We see them
go on and struggle with their own lives:
Callie getting her life and self back, and
seeing how getting herself back doesn’t mean she has to put her career in the
backburner.
Arizona struggling with loneliness, and vulnerability, and her srtuggle with
the PTSD that she does not know she has.
It's easy to ask. Why is she lonely? Callie can handle the loneliness, why can't she?
Derek’s
voice-over sends a very important message:
“This system
of connections compels us to act, and choose and behave, sometimes seemingly
against our own will. But it is not random at all. It is the map of who we
are.”
Portent of
what we are to discover in the coming episodes, of what caused Arizona to act
this way. She has been acting weird, and this may even have been unintentional on her part. It is possible there is something pushing her to act this way.
"We're just starting to learn the extent of the brain's connections, in how far they reach, how deep they go. But we know that every connection matters, and where one is broken, it usually means some damage has been done."
Sigh. What happens now?
Did Shonda create a perky, sunshiny character only to ruin
her reputation?
Only to besmirch a character profile who has been a Good Man in
a Storm with a strong set of principles and a good moral compass – to becoming
a ....sorry to be blunt, -- slut?
It’s sad
that her image is smeared as it is now, when many have looked up to Arizona.
According to
Jessica, we will know in the coming episodes, why Arizona has been acting this way.
We get to delve into her past, and her relationship with Callie since.
I truly hope
we will see why.
It hurts to
see Arizona act this way. It’s just not her.
Many in the fandom are frustrated at how Arizona has become. A lot are disappointed. A lot are aghast. A lot are defensive of Callie who has been
always dedicated to Arizona yet gets cheated on in return, and now, THIS.
Even if I sense the potential of this text message to slightly divide the Calzona fandom, I hope majority still stick with Team Calzona.
This brings us back to the same question : Why did she cheat? Why does she easily hook up with women? First with Lauren, then very fresh from a broken marriage, she hooks up with Leah. Why can’t she stand to be alone? Why is she vulnerable?
I’m
expecting these: 1) PTSD, 2) her own personal history which we know little of, and 3) the issues Arizona and Callie had in their past which
they never talked about , will be the reasons that we see. I'm interested to see how
they will present this.
I don’t know
how the writers will justify the cheating and the slutty ways. I have hope they will.
I hope Arizona’s character will be redeemed in the end. The writers have a lot of explaining to do, if they decide to uphold Arizona's integrity.
Callie, I
hope she finds her way. Little by little. She’s newly recharged, impassioned
about her work and its purpose, may it lead to more success (though we know that in Ep. 9 ,she’ll be sued for malpractice).
A lot of
questions need to be answered. A lot of pain to be ready for.
A long journey apart for our Calzona .
As I said, I believe this is a
transitional episode after the highly emotional five episodes we’ve had so far.
Episode 10x06 laid
the foundation for more intriguing and exciting things to come for Calzona.
I'm picking up my heart from the floor now. I need to prepare it for more Calzona challenges ahead. Let’s hold
tight and hope we survive.
Whatever happens, I keep the faith.
Team Calzona forever.
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