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Calzona Review 12x06 “The Me Nobody Knows”

Callie and Penny were doing the silent treatment tango in the aftermath of  the dinner of the decade.

But obviously, Callie still cared so  she tried  to break the ice at the elevator but was thwarted by Penny.

Callie: First day today
Penny: You don’t have to do that.

The awkward silence was so thick...

Penny has been anxious about her controversial and very public transfer to Grey Sloan  but decides to rise  to the challenge of  being on  Meredith’s service.

Arizona Knows How it Feels

We saw April confiding Arizona that Jackson wants to amputate and not even try to treat a patient she and Riggs brought in. 

Arizona had to be blunt. April knew the boy's scans were so bad and not treatable and that's what upset Jackson.

Arizona: "You lied. About a little boy, April."
April: What are you saying?
Arizona: Nothing. Sorry.

She was about to leave but changed her mind and gave this expression with a hint of empathy:

I’m saying i know what it's like when i feel like everything's falling apart and you need something to pull it together. I just...I know..

Now why won't these sentiments from Arizona not tug at our heartstrings?  All that time at the dinner party, she was drunk and funny, but did we really ask ourselves why she got herself drunk? Why she was constantly looking for more to drink?

Yep. She was fighting her battles with all those bottles of wine.

Seemed as if she wanted to drown those sorrows away with liquor.

She put up a tipsy brave front at the dinner party. Clearly, by her actions at the dinner, SHE HAD NOT MOVED ON COMPLETELY.

From the time she and April peered through the window and saw Penny and Callie arrive, she was fighting her fear. She knew she wasn't ready to face the new couple. No.

She relied on alcohol for the numbness that she needed to shield her from the pain of seeing her ex-wife move on and  fall in love with someone who actually was worth enough to be her girlfriend.

Penny was feeling harassed by Mer, which of course didn’t sit well with her girlfriend Callie. But Penny wanted to handle it n her own.

Callie: Hey i could talk to her
Penny: I will figure this out. Its not your problem.

The Successful Surgery

Badass Callie turned out to be part of the surgical team that handled the boy's surgery.

Initially, at the OR, Callie said  there was nothing to work on. 

Jackson didn’t give up and voila. Soon enough, Callie did find a bone to work on.

Wtnessing Callie work with Jackson on an almost hopeless case, and seeing Jackson not giving up and Callie being there trying with Jackson and found just what they needed to save the patient's hands, it was a dramatic win for the plastics-ortho team, and of course for case sponsors April and Riggs.

Couldn’t help but think of Jackson and Callie in the past episode. When Callie turned to Jackson for advice. I’m loving this new work pairing, and new friendship. Jackson and Callie are geniuses in the OR and comrades in personal matters.

Mer used to be one of Callie's confidantes but after the dinner ep, and because Callie's girlfriend is Penny, looks like that Merlie friendship is on pause.

Callie did call Mer out on being a bully to Penny:

You don't teach by shoving someone's face in the dirt. Thats not teaching. Thats just being mean. And small.

Penny and Callie finally had the chance to talk things over and the lines were just words of people who genuinely care about each other:

Penny: Why are you making this harder
Callie:I just did what i should've done at the party.
Penny: Callie i get it. They're your friends.

Callie: We are surgeons. We make mistakes. We need to be forgiven. I will if you will. And ...im here.. if you are.

Penny : I'm here.

Callie said that almost tearfully. It came from her heart. And Penny's tears were about to fall.

Callie loves Penny. Penny loves Callie. That was what I saw. Callie found someone for sure. Worth her love. And honestly, Penny is a decent human. I can’t think of anything negative about her. And if we do love Callie and  want the best for her, looks like Penny is a good woman for her.

Seeing Callie  lovingly caress Penny's ponytail and rubbing her back in a motherly way, oh my i have to conclude: Callie has truly found someone she has opened her heart to. After Arizona…

As if we weren't traumatized enough by their sweetness in 12x05, their 10-second lip lock in this episode just added the saltiest salt to the wound.  And i had two kinds of feelings  playing tug-o-war within me:

1) It felt painful. Because my heart is only set for seeing Callie and Arizona being sweet to each other, and kissing, and walking arm in arm beneath the moonlit sky. But in this scene, Callie was with a new love.

2) On the other hand, not to be selfish about it, I’m glad  to see Callie find someone with whom.she is happy. The look in those sincere eyes just say nothing but love for her girl. And she did pick a good human. If it isn’t Arizona in this stage in her life, then Penny is a good substitute. Temporary though cause i need not say why i know it is a temporary union.

Wink.

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